Thursday Ramblings

A few rambly/angsty things to express on this Thursday afternoon:


1) Being a responsible, bill-paying, law-abiding, person-respecting adult is DIFFICULT

2) I set my expectations too high

3) I am invariably disappointed

4) I don't change my way of doing things-even though #3 and #4 are always true....

5) I hate waiting

6) I really hate waiting

7) I'm in a waiting period of my life right now

8) I hate waiting


In the meantime, I just do what I can do. One moment at a time--attempting to not bite people's heads off.

Post Show Blues

It's always rough ending a show. You've spent a lot of time with these people and the thing that held you together for so long is ending. You're left wondering if your friendships were real or if they were just for the moment. I am typically one that clings to those moments. I relive them, over-analyze them..and wonder if the other people felt the same way I did. I hope they do. We're two days out and the reality probably won't set in until the weekend, when I won't have to head to the theater, plug in my hot curlers and get ready for the show. It's hit me in random moments already here and there, and my eyes start to well up-especially since things ended on a weird note...but, I digress. I will miss playing that role-even though she took a lot out of me-I'd do it again in a heartbeat. And that's why I keep doing these things-even though my heart breaks every time it's over.

Blog News

I have started posting my more amusing online dating stories on a new blog I've started:

awkwardcupid.blogspot.com

So far I have a few stories up and I am asking that readers send in their own stories to share as well. Let's all commiserate together! You can submit your stories to: awkwardcupidstories@gmail.com

I look forward to hearing from you!

I will continue to post my personal blogs here..this is like my online journal where I spout all my 'shtuff'.

=)

Food Baby

There is a pattern in my life. I get obsessed with something and devote all of my time to it. The obsession wanes and then I move on. In the realm of weight loss it was weight watchers for the first year and running for the 2nd year but now we're coming up on year 3 and I haven't lost much weight since last year...and I actually have put a few pounds on since the end of 2013. Nine pounds in particular. I'm naming that nine pound food baby "Next to Normal" and as of now, I'm putting it up for adoption! I did three shows in a row starting with 9-5: The Musical and for each show I noticed my good habits slowly slipping away (like sands in the hour glass...) but I got so busy that I just didn't take the time to fix it. I also bought a house in the midst of all of that. Now that my latest show has opened and I have a few weeks before I even think about auditioning for anything else I find myself renewed in purpose! Even though I haven't been going to Weight Watchers I have continued to pay for it-so I went and weighed in yesterday after hitting the gym up for the first time in over a month. It wasn't pretty. But-it gives me a jumping off spot and overall I've still maintained a lot of my initial weight loss. I just have to keep on keeping on-and not let life distract me!

Next to Normal

I have been given the opportunity to portray a dream role of mine-Diana Goodman.

We open this Friday and if you're in the area please come check us out.

Tickets:  https://app.arts-people.com/index.php?show=33654

Reflections of a busy 30something...pointless post...

As I stare down the barrel of being closer to thirty-shmeven instead of thirty-shmix...I realize I am relatively happy with my life. The last year especially has brought a lot of change but it was the two years previous to that brought a lot of physical and mental challenges. Those changes/growth/developments all enabled me to get to the place where I'm okay with where my life has headed. I dealt with some evils (mental and physical), run a lot of races, been injured, done a lot of shows, bought a house...left my cat with my parents and then let another one in my life (he's really cute)...what a whirlwind. I'm in the midst of prep for another show and it's taken a lot out of me. To the point where I'm wondering if it's worth it (it is), but when I'm really tired, and I've lost sleep over concern for this character and what she's doing...I'm wondering if it's time to take a break? I probably won't...in fact, I have another audition sunday..but, in all this running around and prep...I've sacrificed the physical dedication I had put into my body before all this happened. And I feel it. When is enough, enough? When will I learn? I'm still figuring that out.

This blog didn't have much point...I just needed to get some rambling out there.