Panera Day again

So maybe Tuesdays can be my Panera day....? I came last week, and now today..which is Tuesday. I think.

I came to my blog today to write all the crap I've been feeling for the last few weeks...because if a blog up on the worldwide interwebz can't be a cathartic place to write how crappy you've been feeling, then what can I ask you? But when I got here and set up my mac...the gentleman sitting across the way from me decided to involve me in his dialogue on politics and the economy and what did I think about it and blah blah blah...all because I have my 'I voted' sticker on my computer case. So, caught up in an unwilling dialogue, not wanting to be rude--I did subtly not quite pay attention to what he said hoping he'd take the hint, but people like that never do, do they? Anyways, I finally had to gently tell him that I was working on some things and really needed to concentrate. He acted a little bit hurt, but he went away....I'm thinking, hey it's not like I was the one that asked you over here! I am sure that he's just lonely and I should have maybe drawn him towards a discussion about God or something, but honestly I was just tired and didn't feel like it. Sorry, God.

So, instead of writing about how discouraged I am today you get this. I don't know what this is. But I think I'll list some things out that I've been thinking about/doing for the past few weeks:

1) I went to Lynchburg to hang with Shelah for a few days. We had an awesome time of just lazing around watching Psych and going to see movies (Bedtime Stories and Bolt) Love you Shels!

2) I went to see Slumdog Millionaire yesterday. I had wanted to see it before the Golden Globes, but didn't get a chance. After it won 4 I convinced Mom to go with me to see it. It was in a word, amazing. Go see it. Now.

3) I have applied for some more jobs...shocker...

4) So far I have not heard back from any jobs at all

5) Some of the jobs are in England

6) Yes, I'll be okay with moving there

7) I missed getting my application into the Ellen Show yesterday--I've been applying every weekday. I hope they don't hold it against me..missing a day and/or applying every day! lol

8) I need to write the lyrics for my song..and then figure out how to record it...and then do a music video to it..paging Dave Daniels...

9) I finally watched 'Commentary! The Musical" which is the musical commentary track on the Dr. Horrible DVD. I guess listened is a better description than 'watching'. The show is on, but the whole commentary is in musical form. I think the songs are even better than the ones in the original musical. The Whedon brothers are so creative!

10) I'm crushing on Neil Patrick Harris. he hosted SNL this weekend? Did you see it? He's great. Too bad he doesn't like girls...sigh. isnt' that always the problem?


That's about it. Crazy man is now on his 2nd victim (after me). I'm going to be leaving Panera soon...I've gotten enough out of my house today I think.and I have my church job tonight. yay

Oh, I read 1 Cor 8:37 today. well, that whole last part of the chapter really--and it helped me feel better about things! You should go read it.

Don't get me wrong...Tux is great but...

he is insane. It was like he woke up one day and was like..."hmm...i bet that thing that walks around on two legs would taste mighty fine in my kitty mouth. I think I'll take a few nips!"...Or, maybe it was something like.."wow, those two legged walking things really take their appendages for granted-I should attack them so they appreciate them more". These thoughts usually hit him around 10ish at night and 7am in the morning. Good times...sigh.

Here's a pic of his royal highness in mid-bite to give you an idea of how tasty my fingers appear to be.

Tales of the Unemployed...

That title makes this blog seem like something cooler than it really is. Or maybe it doesn't, or maybe I'm cooler than I think. Whatever it is, I was going stir crazy in my house today so I decided to shower (yay) and head out to my local panera (aka free wifi). That way I can still be connected and get things done, but be in the public...where people look at you. So, I've been looking at people, people watching I guess you could say. The guy at the table cata-cornered from me moved b/c the people next to me (and behind him) are really loud. I have my iPod on though, so they're not bothering me. I thought the one lady was blind, but she just has really squinty eyes. Then there's another guy a few tables away that keeps taking his macbook (looks like a pro) with him every time he gets up. Relax, man..we're not ALL out to get you. Only some of us. Who am I kidding? I'd probably do the same. He just looked really funny carrying his open macbook (pro..? or NEW macbook?) with his panera plate and coffee mug. I should take all of these people observations and put them in a book or something one day. Or not. I came here to 'write', theoretically. There's that script that I started for a class that I've yet to finish. I think it could be good...and funny. It's hard to write funny. But, I don't know..I just don't think my talents lie in script writing...I can edit..but coming up with something original to say is really hard. Have you ever tried? A lot of the time for me it just comes out sounding like something I think Tina Fey has already said--and said funnier. So, yeah. This is day three of business days of unemployment. Well, besides my part time job at the church. I have that tonight, and tomorrow night. I keep applying all over the place..I know someone's gotta bite somewhere! I don't even care where. Speaking of, I need to get my daily application in to the Ellen show. It's only been two days in a row so they probably haven't noticed yet. I remain ever hopeful though! OKay...blogspot is acting weird..I better go. I have much more people watching to do..and 'script work'. right.

Late Night Musings...

I got a kitten. It probably wasn't the best decision financially at this time-but Tux has been a great distractor for my life issues. He's adorable and I can't imagine life without him. Here's a pic for everyone to enjoy!

Well, today was my first officially 'unemployed' day. I celebrated it in true style by sleeping in a little late, seeing a movie in the afternoon, and basically (with the exception of aforementioned trip to movies) spent the day in my pajamas. This is going to be really weird. With the holidays it was easy to just think of it as holiday time, but now it's January and people are heading back to work and I'm still flailing. I've applied all over the country (and one out of country-one guess as to where =) and just tonight have updated my monster.com account with a recent resume and cover letter. I've also decided that I'm going to apply to be an intern at the Ellen DeGeneres show like..every day. Seriously, I think she likes tenacious people and I've decided that the worst they can do is get a restraining order out against me! I applied once before, on a whim, while working on my Comp Exam. That was before the eliminated position day though. Now, it's for real and it's no holds barred. I will be relentless!

Speaking of Comp Exams, btw--I passed. And, I got an A and A- in my classes, respectively. All that remains is for the school to process my paperwork and my former coworkers to post my degree and send me the (golden) three final transcripts in the mail...and eventually my diploma...and it's official! That exclamation point is fake. I'm really not feeling it. I won't even walk until May, and really it's been kind of odd. Finding out about my job issues really took away a lot of the joy I was feeling about finally (finally) graduating. Maybe it'll come back when I see that transcript with Master of Arts written across the top.


I'll keep you posted on my job searches. I think I'll probably be either working for a temp agency and/or volunteering at a local Christian organization in the meantime. Plus I still have my church job. So, I'll still be as busy as I have always been, but now I can watch tv or read a book without any guilt!

I think I should go watch my own video...

I made this with some friends for a class this semester. Watch and enjoy =)

http://vimeo.com/2300159

I tried to embed, but blogspot wouldn't let me. Meanies! =)

**UPDATE** Try copying/pasting the link into your web browser, sorry!!

"well, at least..."

So, I took a temporary pause in blogging there for awhile. I didn't plan it, but life got in the way. I was just so busy. I'm still busy, but I'm about to be less so. Within the next week or so I finish up my Master of Arts degree...finally. Yay... but today I got some news that kind of makes that 'end' bittersweet. 

I got laid off today.

Yep, you read that right. Laid off. I'm just another one of the thousands of Americans going through this...one of the crowd...nothing special. I keep telling myself things like, well, at least you finished your degree in time to keep tuition remission. Or, well, at least you get a few weeks to get used to it (it's effective 12/31)...at least you'll get three months severance. A lot of people don't get that much.

And you know what, I know all of that is true. But right now..in this moment. It. SUCKS. I may feel differently about it in a few minutes, or tomorrow, or next year...and be thankful for the timing and how it just worked out so perfectly. But right now. IT. SUCKS.

That's all I'm going to say for now. I think I'm still in shock. I just found out 4 hours and 23 minutes ago.

Not that I'm keeping track.

I stood in line 2 hours and all I got was a muddy shoe....

I'd love to see that t-shirt! I had to walk through some mud puddles to reach the end of my GINORMOUS line at the polls yesterday, effectively stepping in one puddle that nearly stole my shoe. But I did not let it deter me! I was there to vote!  We all were! The section there is where I nearly lost my shoe..yikes!

So, it has been quite the time in America lately. Everyone and their brother, and the sister, and their cousin, and their neighbor's cousin's sister's aunt has had something to say about the election. I am both enamored and annoyed with America. Enamored that we actually got off our duffs and voted--but annoyed, because...well...I voted for the other guy. I have heard passionate discourses from both sides on why their candidate is the VERY BEST CHOICE AND IF YOU DON'T CHOOSE THEM THEN THE SKY MIGHT FALL AND KILLER TOMATOES FROM MARS WILL APPEAR....AND THEN WHERE WILL WE BE? Ha. I think we'll be in the place God wants us. I'm glad that most of my friends who supported the 'other guy'  with me and the ones that supported the winner are both broadcasting their trust in God and that He has this all under control. I look forward to the next four years and seeing what happens in America. No doubt that these are historic times, and I'm excited.  I pray that the sanctity of life will be upheld and that big brother stays out of my paycheck! 

So, thank you, America, and uh...fasten your seatbelts...I think it's going to be a bumpy ride!